10 SLAVE CABIN TO PULPIT:
to feel very sorry that He would not come and talk
with me; and then I felt that I was the worst lit¬
tle boy that ever lived, and that was the reason
Jesus would not talk to me. I felt so about it I
wanted to die, and thought it would be just in God
to kill me, and I prayed that he would kill me, for
I did not want to live to sin against him any more.
I felt so for many days and nights.
At last, I gave myself up to the Lord, to do what
he would with me, for I was a great sinner. I
began to see the offended justice of God. O, my
readers, the anguish of my heart! I thought the
whole world was on me, and I must die and be lost.
In the midst of my troubles, I felt that if God would
have mercy on me, I should never sin again.
When I had come to this, I felt my guilt give way,
and thought that I was a new being. Now, instead
of looking with my real eyes to see my Saviour, I felt
him in me, and I was happy. The eyes of my mind
were open, and I saw things as I never did before.
With my mind's eye, I could see my Redeemer
hanging upon the cross for me.
I wanted all the other slaves to see him thus, and
feel as happy as I did. I used to talk to others, and
tell them of the friend they would have in Jesus,
and show them by my experience how I was
brought to Christ, and felt his love within my heart,
— and love it was, in God's adapting himself to my
After receiving this revelation from the Lord, I