After a little talk, Brother Holland left. Sist/r Cooper said
she would be very glad to have me stay all night, but they had no
room. They had not been long there, and had only fitted up one
room for their own use. They thought they would make out with
that for the winter. So then I was obliged to walk a mile and a half
back to Sister Curtis'. I did hate to do it, but the Lord helped me.
So I stayed that night at Sister Curtis', and she gave me a
little breakfast on Sunday morning, but it was mighty skimpey!
But I found out that a good deal of praying fills you up pretty
well when you cannot get anything else! On Sunday morning we
went to Love Feast, and had a good time. Prior to this I had
been asking the Lord to give me a message to give when I went
to Salem. I said, "Lord, I don't want to go to Salem without a
message. And now you are sending me to Salem, give me the mes¬
sage. What shall I say?"
Two or three times I had gone before the Lord with this
prayer, and His word was, " It shall be made known to you when
you come to the place what you shall say." And I said, "All
right, Lord." So I didn't trouble Him any more till this Sunday
morning. The Lord helped Brother Holland preach. When he
got through preaching and the collection was taken, Brother
Cooper made the announcement that I was there; he said, "There
is a lady here, Mrs. Amanda Smith " (he had never seen me before
or heard of me, and he was a rather jovial kind of a man, and in
making this announcement he said, in a half sarcastic and half
joking way), "Mrs. Smith is from New York; she says the Lord
sent her; " with a kind of toss of the head, which indicated that
he did not much believe it. Oh, my heart fell down, and I said,
"Oh! Lord, help. Give me the message."
The Lord saw that I had as much as I could stand up under,
and He said, "Say, 'Have ye received the Holy Ghost since ye
believed?'" (Acts 9:2). That was the message; the first message
the Lord gave me. I trembled from head to foot.
A good sister took me home with her to dinner. The people
all seemed very kind. I felt quite at home when I got with them.
We came back in the afternoon and had a wonderful meeting.
At night after Brother Holland had preached a short sermon,
he called me up to exhort. As I sat in the pulpit beside him, he
saw I was frightened. He leaned over and said, "Now, my child,
you needn't be afraid. Lean on the Lord. He will help you."